Lol, that is my new favorite phrase. I'm going to say that all the time now. Dude, my schedule at work sucks right now. They have me coming and going at different times everyday. I actually had to wake up at eight this morning. I finally get a day off tomorrow after a full week, and then I go back the next day. And I swear people's questions are getting stupider the closer we get to Thanksgiving. That is not very Batman.

Samurai 7 is an effing sweet anime. It's based on the old movie Seven Samurai, which I honestly don't remember much about. But it's got a great story, some interesting ideas, really awesome characters. Kyuzo is my favorite, he's uber badass. It's also got a cool atmosphere, kind of futuristic and primitive at the same time. Yeah, I'm still on this samurai kick. I must've been Japanese in a past life or something.

I recently read that Ozzy fired Zakk Wylde from his band because he was making everything "sound like Black Label Society". I'm not sure how I feel about that. I mean, Zakk's obviously one of the most Batman guitarists around today, and sounding like BLS isn't such a bad thing. Then again, Ozzy's always had a talent for finding kickass guitarists. It'd be cool if he could find somebody new and inject some new life in his own music. Anyway, Zakk's still got BLS, so I guess I'm not too concerned either way.

Everyone should read Guitar World's new interview with Tony Iommi and Eddie Van Halen. I read a lot of GW articles, but this one stood out to me. For one thing, it's Tony Iommi. Der. But they also talk about some interesting stuff, like how people love to complain about random bullshit and you can never please them no matter what you do.

"For some reason people love to complain about everything. The internet has made it easy for people to do that. Shut the fuck up and get a life, or show me how good you can do it." - Eddie Van Halen

It's true. You notice how all the best music today is being made by people in their fifties and sixties? That's cause people my age would rather bitch about new music than make it. It's like they've all accepted that all the best music was in the past and it'll never be that good again. Fuck that! Of course I love old-school rock as much as anyone. Of course the radio is 90 percent garbage. But I don't live in the seventies. I live right here, right now. I hope those old guys keep making music for as long as they got air in their lungs, but I also want something that speaks to my generation. And if other people won't make it, then I'll make it myself goddamn it.

Okay, games that I have to play.

BlazBlue: It's supposed to be the spiritual successor to the Guilty Gear games, which I love.

Brutal Legend: This game looks very Batman. Also very metal. Plus, Ozzy's in it apparently.

The Beatles Rock Band: It's the Beatles. Nuff said.

Final Fantasy Dissidia: It's a Final Fantasy fighting game. Two great things that should go great together.

Games I might wanna check out.

Dragon Age: It looks cool.

Uncharted 2: Ditto.

Assassin's Creed 2: Also ditto.

Wet: A hot chick that kicks ass. What more do I need?

Halo: I still haven't played any Halo games! I have to find out what the big deal is.

Long entry. This is what happens when I don't update for a while.

Dude, I was watching youtube videos the other day, and I accidently clicked on something up in my toolbar region, and now everything is very, abnormally big. Not like huge or anything, but a lot bigger than I'm comfortable with. What the hell did I click?! I'm afraid to click anything else to find out. With my luck, I'd end up turning the screen upside down, and then I'd have to stand on my head whenever I'm on the web, and the blood rush would cause my head to implode.

Anyway. I bought this Japanese movie called Shinobi: Heart Under Blade the other day, and it was pretty cool. It's kinda like Romeo and Juliet, but it has ninjas, so it's like a thousand times more entertaining. Cause ya know, I always thought Romeo and Juliet would be better with ninjas(everything is). It's based on the same novel as the anime Basilisk(which is also awesome), so it's basically the same story, just told in a different way. It's got a good plot and lots of groovy, ninja magick stuff going on.

The craziest thing though is I can't remember if I've seen it before. Cause certain scenes looked extremely familiar, but other stuff I don't remember at all. I'm not sure if I remember that stuff from previews I've seen for it or what. I mean, I'm the guy that remembers every retarded detail of his life, but I can't for the life of me remember if I've seen this movie or not. I've always assumed I'm gonna become senile at a young age, but it's not supposed to be this soon, dammit.

Okay, so there's this old guy at my work that runs one of those sample stands that's like right next to me. This old dude is like the nosiest person I've ever met. I can't blink without him making some weird comment about it. "Ya runnin' any sales today, Jes? Boy, you sure worked that cart fast. Uh oh, Jes is puttin' his coat on, he must goin' somewhere cold." It's just constant all day. Don't get me me wrong, I don't mind people being friendly with me, but geeze, there's a limit. But what makes it even weirder is he's always staring at me. Everytime I turn around, he's sitting there like ^_^. Imagine at your job, having to work all day with some creepy old guy smiling at you the whole time. Drives me crazy, dude.

So in a couple of days, I'll be going to that Paul McCartney concert. I'm looking forward to it. I hope he plays a lot of Beatles songs. Lol, this is a retardo entry even by my standards. I had to invent a new word for how retardo it is.

Eh, work is annoying me again. Since I've been working there for a year, I thought I'd just take some vacation time the week me and Loni go to that concert, and it was rejected. Apparently, I have to be considered full-time in order to take a vacation, which I think is a little ridiculous. I went ahead put in a couple of days off, and I'll be uber-pissed if that gets rejected. I'll have to go up to those managers and start slapping their moustaches off.

But I'm still in a good mood, cause I got this Big Muff fuzz box for my guitar, and it makes it sound super awesome. It's a pretty popular pedal, David Gilmour and Jack White and a bunch of other cool people use it, and Mudhoney even named an EP after it. I love it. It gives my rhythms that heavy, crunchy sound I like without making my solos all screachy, cause I like to solo pretty high on the neck. It's damn near the tone I hear in my head. That's kind of a load off my mind, cause I want my guitar to sound good when I start recording. I was thinking about buying a whole new amp, but I think this one pedal is all I really need to get the sound I want. For now.

Also, I've recently discovered that singing and playing guitar at the same time isn't as impossible for me as I thought. I'm finding out that's mostly just a boundary I set up for myself. But I've been trying it out a lot lately, and it's still hard for me to make that connection in my brain, but I can do it. It's still going to take some practice before it becomes second nature, but having that skill is going to open up a lot of possibilities for me I think.

Really, the only thing I NEED to get started on this whole thing is a recording program to work with EZ drummer. Which like I said, I'm pretty sure a Macbook would provide that in the form of Garageband. I want that Macbook, dude.

Okay, so I was watching The Colbert Report the other day, and he was talking about how scientists have discovered some new species of dinosaur(I think it's a dragon, personally) that lived in the ocean, and they're calling it Predator X. And now I all I can think of is how Predator X would be the coolest band name ever.

I finally got around to seeing the Twilight movie. It was good, but the book was a lot better. It's been like a year since I read the book, so it's hard to make a good comparison, but that's what I thought. For one thing, they way overdid it with the vampires' makeup. Edward looked like he was wearing lipstick in some scenes. And the first time they showed Carlisle, I was like, "Holy crap, it's a Dr. Seuss character!" Lol, and Jasper always had this look on his face like he just shit his pants. I thought Edward was kinda whiny, and I wasn't crazy about Bella either. Bella has a sense of humor in the book, but this one was kinda devoid of personality.

So I thought it was a good movie, but it gave me too much of a Hollywood vibe overall. I wouldn't say it lives up to the hype.

Ugh, at work they made us watch this really corny video about...actually, I'm not totally sure what the point of that was. Some kinda motivational thing? I'm don't know, but it had the supervisors and other employees doing these really dorky skits with bad acting and basically talking about how much they love Wal-Mart. Like I said before, it's annoying when old people try to be funny. Also, they moved Stormie to Deli for unknown reasons, which kinda sucks. Her and Kevin are pretty much the only interesting people I work with. As if that place really needs to be more boring.

In other work related crap(lololol), someone freaking took a dump in one of the urinals the other day. *shakes head* Only in Arkansas.

It's weird that I've been working there for a year now. Really, I never planned to be working there that long. I'm getting tired of it, but I don't want to quit because of this big, economic whatever we're going through. I need to figure something out though, cause it's getting in the way of my music. When I first got this job, it was because I needed money. Now I got money, what I need now is time. I don't have the time I need for my music cause I'm working all the time. So that needs to change. How exactly I'm going to do that, I'm not sure.

Dude! My paycheck this week was over 700 dollars! Apparently, everyone got these huge-ass bonuses for some reason. Whatever, I'm not questioning it. Yesssssssssss.

Okay, lately it seems like all I hear about is twitter. Twitter this, twitter that, I twitter, you twitter, he, she, it twitters. What the hell is the point of twitter? You just write some short thing about what you're doing at the time? That's something people get addicted to? How can you even have anything to write about if you're on it all the time? I don't get it.

It's like how myspace keeps making these new features that don't seem to have any point to them. Like a while back ago, they got that "friend status" thing. I was like, "Okay, that's kinda random," but what the hell, I can say dorky shit on it, so I figure I'll play along. But now they got this thing where you can see every friend status update a person's ever done. Why? So you can see how one of your friends updated it thirty times in an hour? In case you missed one of their dorky little updates? That just seems obsessive compulsive to me. I mean, I love the internet as much as the next guy, but some of this stuff is just like, "Who cares?"

Lol, Elaina told me she likes Jim Carrey movies. I'm feeling optimistic about her so far. Except she says "lol" too much. I hate it when people say "lol" instead of talking to you. And she likes talking with those dots(...), too. It irritates me when people do that, it gives me the idea they're hiding something from me. I'd rather someone tell me I'm being a dork instead of implying it.

Okay, I guess I'll elaborate on what's going on with Alli. Ever since she chickened out of meeting me that one day, she's been acting really distant and weird with me. Like she'd take five or ten minutes to reply to me, and then she'd give me some one word answer. That was getting annoying. It's like, when I'm talking to someone, there's any number of things I could be doing at that time, but I'm choosing to talk to them. If they're not gonna talk back, then I'm wasting my time. So I was planning to tell her I think we should just be friends. But then she was on her webcam last night, and she was all showing me her tits and junk, so I figure, "What the hell, I can forgive her for now." Lol, lets drag this out for a couple more months, why not?

Okay, anyone who's ever read this blog knows what to expect. This is the part where I bitch about the final boss of whatever fighting game I'm playing at the time. Seth really is an asshole though. He does this annoying thing where he teleports all over the place when he knocks you down, which is especially stupid if you're using a charge character like Guile. And if you jump at him, he hits you with this uppercut move that hits you eight times. I'm not joking. Eight fucking times. And he freaking abuses this grab move he has where he uppercuts you in the air, teleports after you, then spinning pile drives you. It's a cool move, but he'll hit you with it, then he'll zip next you while you're getting up and do it again! And he doesn't care if you're hitting him when he does it either! He was grabbing me while I was doing psycho crushers for cripe's sake! Exclamation mark!

I was using Chun-Li against him, and I was eventually just like, "Screw this, I'll play it on easy." So I played through the game all over again on very easy, and he still beat me like four or five times! I was on very fucking easy, and he was still doing the same stupid tricks. It was ridiculous, dude. But one good thing at least, I now have another reason to think Ken is awesome. I beat Seth on the first try with him.

Okay, so I'm thinking about trying to get my schedule changed at work. I just can't live with these hours anymore. I wake up at noon, I go to work at four, and by the time I get off work, the day's over. I can't play my guitar with the amp on cause everyone's asleep, I can't work on my music, and I still haven't been able to visit Michelle even though she said I was welcome to do so on Christmas. It's like I can't really do anything. Plus, those guys in The Heist work in the mornings, so I'll need my afternoons open if I'm gonna do that. Waking up early would take some adjusting to at first, and I'm a little worried they'll try to get me working eight hours a day, but I think it's something I gotta do. I need more time to work on my music if I'm gonna get serious about it.

In any case, I need to do something about my current situation. I'm starting to feel like I'm living someone else's life, and I don't like it.

Earlier this week, this dude sent me an email about a singing/rhythm guitar playing position in a band called The Heist. I usually end up ignoring messages like that because they're always southern rock bands or screamy metal bands. But they had a few of their songs posted, and they actually play pretty good rock n' roll. They're not a hundred percent what I'm looking for(that would be impossible), but it'd be a start. Plus, they've apparently recorded an album of original material that's selling pretty well for a local band. So I gave them a call and talked to their drummer for a little bit about what they're looking for. He said he'd probably call me back next week, and we'll figure out a time when we can get together and jam. http://www.heistoriffic.com/


There is one problem though. I mentioned to him that I have problems singing and playing guitar at the same time, but he said he'd like it if I could do it for at least one song. That is going to be a bitch. I'm a pretty good singer and a pretty good guitarist, but it's really hard for me to do both. It like fucks up my sense of rhythm or something. But really, I know I need to start practicing that anyway. I know it'd open more options for me if I could learn to do both.

In other news, Jeanie's on a new shift now. My first instinct is to throw on some AC/DC and jump for joy, but I'm a little skeptical. Cause last Sunday I think it was, I was seeing her all over the place in the afternoon. So this might just mean she'll start pulling me away from the lunchmeat wall earlier instead of later. I wouldn't think she can get away with that in the daytime, but I guess I'll find out. If nothing else, at least I don't have to deal with her on weekdays now.

Warning: This entry is going to be very psychological in nature. So I'm going to make even less sense than usual.

I finally got the big CD holder thing set up in my room. I love it, dude. It's really more like a bookshelf, so I can hold more than just CDs on it. I was really needing something like that, and it's exactly my style, too. My room is slightly less cluttered now.

I've been trying to get back in the habit of daily, five-minute meditation lately. I'm not doing it for any weirdo spiritual reasons this time, it's mostly just to clean the junk out of my head(one of the main reasons I keep this blog). I'm trying to practice staying in the moment and actually paying attention to my surroundings more often so I'm not just drifting away into wonderland all the time.

I'm also doing the meditation in an effort to get back in touch with who I am as a person, which is something I feel I lose sight of sometimes. I'm funny, random, creative, eccentric, and philosophical. That's who I am in a nutshell. But over time, I feel like I've allowed people and society in general to come in and add all this extra stuff to my personality that doesn't belong there. Sometimes I overdo it with the smart guy crap. Sometimes I feel pissed off over things that shouldn't be important to me in the first place. Sometimes I act super serious in an effort to keep people away from me so they can't hurt me. I never had any of those traits as a kid, and now I'm wanting to get rid of all that stuff that doesn't belong there and get back to my core identity.

Also, I feel like I've really found my voice as a song writer this last year or two. I've noticed that songwriting has been a lot more natural to me lately. For one thing, I can't remember the last time I used a rhyming dictionary, and I used to use one all the time. But also, the stuff I'm writing about has changed. When I first started writing songs, they were mostly about the Bush administration and the effect they were having on American culture. But now Bush is on the way out, and I feel more free to write about myself and stuff I'm going through, along with songs that are just fun and stupid. Of course, that's not to say I've given up on giving the middle finger to authority. :D That's still a pretty common theme in my work.

Okay, to make up for all the psycho-babble talk, I'm gonna tell a funny work story. I was in one of the coolers the other day, breaking down a pallet with David. Now David's a pretty quiet-spoken guy like I said before, and just looking at him and talking to him, you expect him to be like a nice, old, grandfatherly-type guy. But he has this way of saying bizarre shit when you least expect it. So we were breaking down that pallet, and Robert passed by and made some kinda joke about pot or something. And David just blurted out, "I got half a doobie in my glovebox if you want it." And then when Robert was gone, he turned to me and was like, "You do that stuff, Jes? I can't go without my marijuana. I grow my own though, I can't afford it." Lol, it's like where the hell did that come from? I thought it was hilarious.

I've decided that youtube is the biggest time waster that's ever existed. I've gotten to where I don't even go there unless I'm prepared for at least half an hour of my life to just magically evaporate. It's hilarious how people on youtube always leave comments complaining about having their life wasted. It's like, dude, that's what youtube is there for. If you had something productive to do, you wouldn't be on youtube.

Okay, so there's this older dude named David that works with me on the lunchmeat wall early in the day on weekends. I've mentioned him on here before. He has his weird, racist tendencies, but he makes my job easier, and he seems to like me, so I like him too.

Anyway, yesterday at work, me and him were in one of the back coolers, trying to downstack one of the billions of pallets that've come in recently. Kevin, Stormie, and this other David that works in dairy were kinda playing around a bit, jabbing this broom between the double doors and pretending to poke each other with it. All in good fun, no big deal to me. But this really pissed off David. Now he's a pretty quiet guy in the literal sense. A lot of the time, I can barely understand what he's saying. But he got right Stormie's face and yelled something to the effect of, "You need to stop playing around and do some damn work!" Then, he stormed out of the room and came back with our department manager, Jepp, and taddled on them like a freaking kindergartener. Jepp's a pretty laid back guy from what I've seen, so he was just like, "Okay, let's just try to get this work done." After that, you could feel the tension in the air, and David spent the rest of the day complaining about how lazy they are and how they never do any work.

I don't get why adults obsess over this idea that other people aren't working as hard as they are. I don't care what other people are doing, I care what I'm doing. I have to assume it comes from boredom. They're bored with their jobs, so they try to start shit to make things interesting. And I guess it's also because they feel like they have to blame other people for their own problems. It seems like a really destructive habit to me. They'd be better off focusing those emotions somewhere else, but then again, a person can't change if they don't know they're doing something wrong.

Dude, David told me today that after this month, Jeanie's going to be going on a different shift! Which means I won't have to deal with her anymore! *happy dance* I probably shouldn't get too excited, his information is wrong sometimes. But she apparently told him that herself, so yay!

Lol, there was one day last week when I was like super exhausted from the Thanksgiving craziness, and I just really didn't feel like dealing with her bullshit. I was passing through one of the coolers, and Stormie and Kevin were kinda talking in the corner, and I just blurted out, "Do you guys know if the hermaphrodite's here today?" Kevin was just like, "What?" and Stormie got this look on her face like she was trying to wait till I left the room to start laughing. Lol, I know it was mean, but I just don't like that person. I can tolerate a lot, but I don't like it when people talk down to me. Plus, the way she acts like what we're doing is so important brings out my usual anti-authority feelings. I mean come on, you could train a monkey to do this kinda work.

In other news, Loni told me yesterday that she caught her boyfriend cheating on her, so she broke his nose. Lol, she said she was telling one of her other guy friends about it and crying and stuff, and he said, "Ya want me kick his ass?" just joking, and she was like, "I already broke his nose!" I think that's hilarious.

As bad as it sounds though, I'm kinda glad it happened. She said she was planning to marry the dude in March. I dunno what the deal is, but it seems like all the guys she dates lately she's wanting to marry right away. I think a lot of it's because she hates that Kayden's growing up without a father. And I can understand, she grew up without her dad and she doesn't want that life for her daughter, but I'm worried she's gonna end up getting herself in a crappy situation if she keeps trying to rush into marriage like that. I want to just be like, "Dude relax, you'll find the right guy, it'll happen when it happens. No need to get in a hurry."

Dude! I saw a guy at Wal Mart's parking lot today that looked exactly like Tourrette's Guy! Exactly like him! I was like, "Holy shit!!!"

And dude, yesterday was so uncool. Black Friday. They had me scheduled from 10:00 to 7:00. Imagine that, Jes, the guy that never sleeps coming into work at ten in the morning. I was dead tired when I drove to work, expecting the whole store to just be packed with people, and I hadn't been able to sleep the night before anyway cause of my insomnia. And let me tell you, not only was it not busy, it was more dead than I'd ever seen it. There was barely anyone there all day. I was like, "Dude, you got me up at fucking ten in the morning for this?! Why didn't you just let me sleep?!"

But in a moment of seriousness, I heard that someone in New York was actually trampled to death because of Black Friday. How sad and pathetic is that? Someone lost his life cause some people wanted to save a couple of bucks. I think we need to re-evaluate what's really important in life.

Anyway, on to a lighter topic. I drove to the mall today during my lunch break(I was only a couple minutes late getting back :D), and I happened to see Michelle at Game Stop. She had Ricky and Faith with her. And ya know what's funny? She's working at Wal Mart, too. A different one. We met completely by coincidence, and we were both in matching Wal Mart smurf outfits. Lol. Her nametag said "Melissa" though. *shrug* My family's weird.

We talked for a little bit, and she said she'd probably try to catch us around Christmas or something. And I gave her my phone number. I'd really like to see them more often, but I'm too lazy to make the effort myself. Hopefully, she'll call sometime. I want to kick Rick's ass on the new Mortal Kombat game.

So I've been watching Baki the Grappler, and that is a really good anime. The best I've seen in a long time. Lots of really interesting characters, and lots of majorly kickass fight scenes. In fact, the fights pretty much dominate the whole plot in the second half of the series, but they're so good I don't mind. And Baki's dad, Yujiro Hanma is so badass it's just sick. One thing I like about it is it shows the main character develop over the course of the show. He starts the series as a ridiculously muscular 13 year old, and it shows him growing and getting stronger as it progresses. It's pretty cool.

One thing I didn't like about it is the ending. It felt unfinished. But I think the manga continued a lot longer than the anime, so it's forgiveable. I hate when that happens. Also, it never really explains why Daddy Hanma is so freaking powerful. That character's seriously in a whole league of his own on this show, but they never say how he got that way. I wanna know so I can get that powerful and then go out and beat up a polar bear. But other than that, it's a good anime. :P

I keep jumping from one topic to another. This is a crazy person's blog.

Dude, work has been vigorously kicking my ass this week. I'm so effing glad that Spanksgiving is almost over and I get a day off. I need to sleep for about a month.

Playing Mortal Kombat online is still awesome. I've gotten to where the only people that beat me are the ridiculous people that have like 200 wins on it. Seriously dude, that game's only been out for like a week, how can someone have 200 wins? The game has to be like their whole lives or something. And I hate it when people use The Flash. The Flash is too freaking fast.

So whaddaya know? Pigs have flown, hell's frozen over, and Axel Rose has released Chinese Democracy(I refuse to say it's Guns n' Roses). It's pretty cool actually. The song Chinese Democracy itself is a really badass song, the kind that just immediately kicks you in the teeth. Other than that, the guitar playing is really good on all the songs. Sometimes the focus is a little too much on playing technical instead of playing good(mostly when Buckethead's playing), but for the most part, the guitarists do a pretty good Slash impression.

On the downside, it kinda shows that he spent ten years making this album. Some of the songs start out sounding like techno or something. Plus, a lot of the songs just don't have enough of a hard rock vibe about them. Or else, it takes them a while to morph into hard rock.

I also got Tool's Lateralus. They're pretty cool. There's a really dark, atmospheric vibe about them. They're songs are almost like living things, they sorta grow and evolve over time. And super-awesome lyrics, too. I really like it.

But dude, the album ends with this really creepy thing about Area 51 or whatever. I did not need to hear that, dude. I don't know what it is about aliens. Like I'm interested in ghosts and stuff like that obviously, and they don't bother me. Aliens freak me right the fuck out. Any time I see a thing about them on TV, I get weirded out. And my whole life, the only movies that've ever kinda freaked out are The Ring and Signs. Signs isn't even a scary movie, but images from that kept replaying through my head for days on end afterwards. Partially cause I didn't expect aliens to really be in it. The previews were all, "Oh, we're going just gonna show like the alien's big toe or something." No, they showed the whole fucking alien. In fact, I can't even talk about this anymore cause I'm giving myself the creeps. Freaking aliens, dude.

Ya know, I would probably make a pretty good music critic if music critics weren't something I greatly dislike.

So I haven't had my computer for nearly a week now. Michael took it to a guy he knows(whose name is also Michael...seriously way too many Michaels) to see if he can get Pro Tools to work on it. This dude's like an expert on computers, and he sounds like he knows what the problem is. So if everything works out, I might be doing that this next week. :D Rock n roll.

Speaking of rock n roll, I am officially going to be seeing AC/DC. They're going to be playing in Tulsa in January, and it sounds like I got some pretty good seats. I'm so glad they're finally releasing this new record and going on tour and shit. I've only been waiting for this for freaking YEARS now. At this point, I don't even care if the album sucks. I'm just looking forward to finally seeing one of my all-time favorite rock bands.

Ya know what I just realized? I've been talking to Alli for as long as I've been working at Wal-Mart. It's rare for me to be talking to a person that long. And we STILL haven't met. We were going to this week, but her check came up short, and she's got bills to pay. I'm kinda bummed about that, cause I was looking forward to seeing her. It's not like I'm even doing anything wrong, it's just that something ALWAYS comes up. And I won't be able to see her next week either, cause I got another doctor's thing. I'd like to meet her already so we can hang out and actually do all these horribly naughty things we're always talking about. I'm tired of being patient, dammit.

Ya ever notice how old people always laugh at the most random things? Today at work, I went into the office and told whatsername I lost my name tag and asked if I could clock in without it, which I thought was a legitimate question. And she just went "No" and started cracking up. I'm like, "What the hell?" Where's the punchline? It's like how sitcoms always throw in laugh tracks for no apparent reason. Dude, I swear if I live for a hundred years, I'll never understand how normal people think.

So I signed on to yahoo the other day to talk to Alli, and I had a message from Shanell, who I haven't talked to in months. She was just sorta asking what's up and seeing what's been going on with me. So we've messaged a little back and forth, and she told me that she has to see a shrink now. Apparently, she's not allowed to be by herself anymore. I haven't gotten the whole story, cause I haven't been able to catch her online, we've just been sending messages on yahoo. It's crazy though. I mean, I knew she was a little weird, that's one of the things I thought was cool about her, but it never occured to me that she needed help. It sucks, cause she was really happy last time I talked to her. She was just getting married and getting a big promotion at her work and stuff. It's stupid that something had to fuck with that.

That being said, I am really glad that we're talking again. Cause we were really connecting for a while, and she lives a lot closer to me than any of my other friends, and then she just sorta dropped off the planet. That kinda pissed me off. But now we're talking again, so hopefully, this means I have my friend back. :D

On another note, Jeanie's actually been acting nice to me lately. She even called me "sir" last night. It's so uncharacteristic. I'm guessing someone must've had a talk to her about her attitude. But whatever. I've decided I'm not mentioning her on here again unless something important happens. I don't want to turn into one of those boring, old farts that just bitches about the people he works with.

Haha dude, I loved tonight's episode of American Dad.

Old lady: Here's a picture of my grandson.
Steve: I go to school with him. He's kind of a douche.
Old lady: Yeah...I know...

So I saw ZZ Top again last night. They were playing in Fort Smith of all places, cause they're doing this tour where they're playing smaller venues. This was kinda full circle for my dad. The first concert he ever went to was ZZ Top in Fort Smith. It was a really cool show, but there's really not much I can say about it that I didn't say when I saw them last year. They played pretty much the same songs, and even had the same opening band, Blackberry Smoke.

They added I Need You Tonight to this set, and Billy played this long freaking solo with one hand. He wasn't even looking at his guitar, he was just staring out at the audience with one hand on his hip while he's busting out this kickass solo. It was awesome. And Dusty Hill sang this Howling Wolf song. And they played Hey Joe instead of Foxy Lady. I guess they play a Hendrix song at all their shows. That's pretty cool. Billy Gibbons used to open for Hendrix in his band before ZZ Top, The Moving Sidewalks. Hendrix actually said once that Gibbons was his favorite guitarist. Overall, it was a really awesome show. Much cooler than stocking weiners and dealing with customers.

Speaking of which, it's time to talk about work now. Always fun. Well, the bitch is back. Turns out Jeanie was just on vacation. On Thursday night, she reared her ugly head again and made me work in receiving. Now I was kinda having stomach problems that day, and I was trying to take it easy lest I shit myself. And apparently, she thought I wasn't working fast enough or something, and she kept getting on my ass about that. In fact, I swear I overheard her say something to the effect of, "This little guy's getting on my nerves." Now that's bullshit. I'm not in high school anymore, and I'm not going to tolerate that kinda attitude, especially from a grown woman. She's been nice enough these last couple of nights(surprising since I didn't tell her I was leaving that night), but my patience is really wearing thin with her.

In more fun work news, I did throwaways for the first time today. Every once in a while, we find food out on the wall that's inedible, and we have to throw them in this big container. Once the container's full, we have to cut the meat out of their packages and dump them in these little buckets, and then dump it in this big compactor thing. That's what I did today. And when I say inedible, I mean this shit is green. It would probably kill a person if they tried to eat it. And the smell is satanic. Quite possibly the nastiest thing I've ever had to do in my life.

But on a happier note, Alli's recently gotten a job that actually requires her to come to Fort Smith on occasion. Some kinda inventory thing for gas stations or something. How perfect is that? So we should be seeing each other soon, hopefully in the next week. About friggen time, too. It's crazy that we haven't already met yet.

Damn dude, I made like 500 dollars on my check last week. I guess working on labor day wasn't so bad after all. And now I have nearly a thousand bucks in my bank account. Hell yeah! I could buy a new game system now, but I'm thinking I still need hold on to some money since I'm not sure what my near future holds. At least till my next check. They'll probably have fucking playstation 4 by the time I finally get around to that...

So I guess my problem with Jeanie has been solved. I haven't really had to deal with her since I told her off that one day. There was one time she told me to work in receiving like a week ago, and I just did that for like five or ten minutes, then went on break till it was time to go home. Lol, I heard she was pissed off at me for that, but screw her. She hasn't really bothered me other than that, and thank Hey-Zeus. I was seriously thinking about quitting over that. Haha, Heather still doesn't say hi to me anymore after that meeting though. Oh well.

Ya know what's funny though? I would work past my shift on like a regular basis when I was working at Toys R Us. But hell, that was Toys R Us, this is freaking Wal Mart. I'm not willing to stay there longer than I have to.

Oh gods, summer's officially over now. That sucks, dude. I don't want it to start getting cold again. I deal with enough coldness at work. Lol, I've been saying "gods" a lot lately. I'm obviously unsane.

Oh man, last night's episode of Dethklok was freaking badass. The season finales are awesome, dude.

Okay, so the first thing I did after I clocked in yesterday was try to find a manager person to see if I can get my Jeanie problem taken care of. And the first manager person I came across was Heather. Heather's the kind of person that comes across as abnormally sweet and friendly, but I don't think it's necessarily fake in her case. She always says hi to me in a real girly voice that doesn't seem to match her age.

Anyway, we sat down in the office, and I told her what was going on. I also explained to her that the time I spend working with Jeanie is time I usually spend zoning the wall and junk. And her reaction was to suggest zoning the wall a little earlier so it's not a problem. She actually wants me to keep doing what Jeanie wants, even though it's not my job. I can't remember if she even said anything about me staying past my shift. So I took a deep breath, looked her in the eye, and said, "If I have to keep working with Jeanie, I'll have to find employment elsewhere."

In response, she said, "So are you putting in your two-week notice?" In my head, I was like, "Fuck, didn't see that coming." I didn't know what else to say at that point, cause despite what I said before, I'm still not sure I actually want to quit my job over this just yet. So I just shrugged my shoulders, said, "I guess I'll see how things go," and went to work. I get the feeling I was making her uncomfortable in our little meeting, and that doesn't exactly bother me considering how helpful she was. And I imagine I must've been putting out some major "don't talk to me" vibes after that, cause David didn't say anything to me for like an hour.

I thought Sunday was Jeanie's day off, so I didn't really think about it too much after that. Unfortunately, I was wrong. Toward the end of my shift, Jeanie came stomping toward me and told me to start pulling out carts and shit again. I bit my lip to stop myself from yelling obscenities and did what she said. Kevin was helping me out tonight, and at 9:00, we were both on our way to clock out. I didn't even want to tell her I was leaving, I just wanted to go. But naturally, we crossed paths with her on the way out, and she was trying to keep me there. And then this happened.

Jes: Jeanie, I can't keep working past my shift. I have to go now.
Jeanie: This truck has to get done. Ten or fifteen minutes is not going to make or break your day.
Jes: The last couple of nights have been 45 minutes.
Jeanie: It's up to you.
Jes: I have to go now. *turns and walks away*
Jeanie: Oh man...

So that's where I am now. I have no idea what the hell's going to happen next, I'm just gonna leave it up to fate. But it is entirely possible that I won't be working there much longer. I just can't stand working with that woman. She talks to me like I'm a fucking dog or something. So I need to take some time to consider my options. In any case, I'm feeling good about standing up to that bitch tonight.

Oh, and I'm apparently going to be seeing ZZ Top again. :P

Okay, this Jeanie situation has gone far enough. That bitch kept me 45 minutes past my shift the last two nights doing shit that has nothing to do with the lunchmeat wall. Tomorrow, I'm not doing anything until I talk to my supervisor or someone who can put a stop to that bullshit. Seriously dude, I'll quit before I take another order from that woman.

On my way out, I happened to see Garrett from Toys R Us, which was kinda cool. Apparently, he's working there now, but I forgot to ask what department. I told him about Jeanie, and he agrees that she's a total bitch. Lol, then I talked to Loni about it when I got home, and she told me she'd never heard me so pissed off. I am pissed, man. I do not like that lady. Whenever I talk to someone tomorrow, I'm gonna tell them to talk to her about having more respect for her workers.

Oh dude, I was like ecstatic to have a day off today. Yesterday was nuts. Along with it being a holiday, we were getting refugees from the hurricane. Work is sucking my mojo away, man. Oh, and there's also this bossy, bitchy person named Jeanie(I think) who keeps taking me away from the meat wall at the end of the day to pull out these heavy-ass carts. This lady is freaking Dolores Umbridge. She talks down to me all the time, which is one thing I can't stand, and she acts like she's mad or something when I make a mistake at something I have no experience with. And anyway, I don't think that's part of my job in the first place. I'm assuming that's a Labor Day thing for now. But if that continues, I'm gonna have to have a talk with my REAL supervisor.

Okay, that's enough work talk. Now that I beat Final Fantasy, I bought Arcana Heart. It's like an all-girl fighting game, so I obviously like it. But pervertedness aside, it is a pretty cool game. It's really fast-paced, and you can pull off some insane combos. Oh, and the main character, Heart, is kinda lame but has this one classic quote: "Secrets between friends are not awesome!" Lol, I love that.

But dude, the boss to this game, Mildred, is a major super-bitch. She could be freaking Gill's evil wife or something. Her moves do like a ridiculous amount of damage, and once she starts hitting you, she doesn't stop. And she has this one move where she flies up and drops all these lasers on you, and I can't see any way to block or avoid it or anything. I seriously fought her for like over an hour or something when I was using Heart, then just finally gave up and played it on easy. It's insanity.

A note to all fighting game developers: I understand the boss has to be tougher than the rest of the characters, but give us a freaking chance at least! You can't just have them kill us in four hits and fill the screen up with their projectile moves and automatically knock us on our ass if we jump at them. Show us some mercy for Ozzy's sake.

Dude, ya know what's really not cool? I looked at my schedule for next week, and it says, "Happy Labor Day!!!" at the top in big, bold letters, and then they have me working on Labor Day. And I usually don't even work on Mondays. That's a middle finger if I've ever seen one. It sucks cause Loni invited me to go to some fair thing with her this weekend, and I would so much rather do that than work. Any other weekend, I'd just call them and be like, "I can't go to work! I have diarrhea! I'm farting blood!" But since it's Labor Day weekend, I'm thinking they'd get pissed if I did that. Bumfuckers.

Okay, so I finished Breaking Dawn. Well actually I finished it like two and a half weeks ago, but whatever. It was really awesome. I'd say it starts with like the biggest freaking plot-twist ever. I never would've seen it coming. Jacob's part of the book was my favorite. I relate to that character for some reason. I dunno why, I guess cause he's the loser of the book(if you think you know what that means, you're wrong). The last chapter of that part was probably one of the most powerful things I'd ever read. The only real complaint I have is I think the ending was just a little anti-climactic. But overall, I thought it was a great book.

Lol, Motorhead has a song on their new album called "Rock Out". I think that's genius. I wish I'd thought of that. I'll admit that Motorhead's pretty much made the same record several times over the last several years, but at least they put a new one out every couple of weeks it seems like. With other older rock bands, it seems to take them like half a decade to make anything new. I wonder why that is. Like you look at bands in the seventies, and they'd put out a record every year it seemed like. Now it takes everyone FOREVER to do anything new. *coughac/dccough*